Today's Gospel started me thinking about the need to live in the awareness of a Presence and how Giussani's method, borne of his charism, which we share by our adherence to the method, teaches us to cultivate this awareness. The need to cultivate this awareness is illustrated by St. Peter's stepping out of the boat after the Lord beckons him, "Come" in response to Peter's entreaty, "Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water" (Matt. 14,28-29a). So, at the Lord's beckoning, Peter steps out of the boat and begins to walk toward Jesus. Once he is walking on the water, he becomes distracted when he notices the strong wind (v. 30). It is here that I wonder if I am overreaching to suggest that perhaps Peter began to look around, over to the shore, back at the boat, everywhere but at Jesus. This distraction induces fear because his awareness is given wholly over to the wind, the waves, his distance from the safety of the shore and the boat. If I am not overreaching, then I feel safe in asserting that Peter's being frightened is the result of his letting his awareness of the Presence be obscured by his circumstances.
Letting go of our awareness of Christ's presence, which is a fact that exists whether we acknowledge it or not, also has something to do with not living in the awareness of destiny, one of the two things necessary, according to Don Giussani (the other being mortification or self-control), to attain true freedom, the complete satisfaction of desire, finding that which corresponds to your heart.